I wish I could be my own psychologist...

Yeah, lately the goings for me have been tough.  I don't know what the fuck is going on - I have been on this medication for over a year now and it seems to be doing weird things to me.  Could it be that I have been drinking like a fish while i've been on it?  Probably.  They put labels on medication bottles for a reason.  Could it be that I bottle up all my feelings only to reveal them after I get so worked up I explode at someone? Probably.  Could it be that I hate my job because I get so bored and have no challenge? Absolutely.

There are so many things, just small things, that drive me insane.  I have no idea how to control it.  I am currently seeing a Psychiatrist twice a month and I thought it was helping.  I don't know what else to do.  Sometimes I just want to curl up in bed and cry myself to sleep.  No one understands until they have dealt with it - it really sucks.